2/28/09

fuh.

i've been gettin hella irritated lately

ppl are just annoying the shit out of me

usually my tolerance of people being stupid asses are high.

but fucking, why can't people just be a LITTLE smarter

especially my grandma
her:"wheres your dad? is he home?"

me: "where else would he be, all the cars are here"
her: "well where is he then?"
me: "in his room"

her: "whats he doing in there" (NOTE: my parents are ALWAYS in their room.)

me: "he's sleeping"

her:" why is he sleeping?"


WOW seriously?

later on in the conversation

her: "is he walking?"
me: "yeah hes walking, we went out today"
her: "yeah but is he walking?"

me: "well how else is he gonna get around when we go out"

her: "i know that but is he walking?"


I hope you get the picture.

now this is pretty much the same shit i hear everyday from my grandma

I can't TAKE it, fuck.

if she wants to know how he's doing, she can just go walk to his room and ask him herself.

gah -.-

on a happy note.....

lets end this with a pic.




from mariels bday last night.


LA








2/23/09

dude

this past weekend has been pretty bomb

saturday i was out with fs5s over in riverside

christine got her shirts so we were reppin that all day.




took some pics for funkadeliks myspace, shit came out booommmb.



ended the day with another left4dead session with jesse,emcay, and christine



saturday
was sunday cousin funday

had a potluck at my uncle's new appartment.

food was bomb and having the family around was great.

ended it by watching quarantine (still sucks)




today i got my car back

my baby is beautiful agian

and runs hella smoother than be4

jesse, emcay and meesh came over for a lil bit.

that was great cause hardly anyone comes over.

christine got jealous cause she wasnt here with us xP

so bomb.




bang.

2/21/09

dude.

seriously now.
it has been 25 days since my car accident
25 days and its STILL not fixed.

i keep hearing "oh it will be done by [insert day here]"
when that day comes, still NO car.

i'm tired of getting my hopes up.

i just want my DAMN car.


i want my freedom back.

i need to get out.





2/18/09

.

now you caught my heart for the evening

kissed my cheek, moved in, you confuse things

should i just sit out or come harder

help me find my way.

2/16/09

hmm

yesterday was pretty down

morning had to take my dog to the vet
she had a hurt leg

jesse,emcay, meesh and their dad dropped by to pick up jumper cables in my car

picked up my cuzzo cause she wanted some ipod songs



vanessa and charlie came over for a lil bit to kick it


then headed over to rowland for my uncle and aunts small bday dinner.


pretty chill dayyyy

2/14/09

vday

another vday...
alone.

well not really alone
cause TINS lonely, and then i'm lonely
and we are both being lonely together

so technically we're not alone?

bahaha i dont know.




2/13/09

25

well if yall dont have a facebook and didnt get to see this
read it yo.


Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.

(To do this, go to "notes" under tabs on your profile page, copy and paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your 25 random things, tag 25 people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.



1. I hate being underestimated, just because I am big, that doesn't mean I am not able to do what everyone else can do.

2. It is very hard for me to forgive people, especially if the situation is bad. If you have ever stabbed my back, tossed me a side, used me for things, and I've caught you, Good luck trying to make it up to me, cause once you lost my trust, it takes a shit load to get it back.

3. I love it when people think I'm stupid or put me on a lower level than them. Reason being is because when then time comes, I can surpass them and show them up. I love the look on the persons face when they say "Where the fuck has he been?" or "What has he been doing all this time?"

4. I don't judge a person based on how they look or appear, I don't make assumptions about anyone at all. But I will come to a conclusion on said person after I have talken to them one on one.

5. Normally I am the quiet one in class, but you can always catch me throwing in a comment here and there to get people laughing.

6. A favorite past time of mine is driving down the streets cruising at a slow 40 mph pace at 3-4am with my windows down, listening to some slow hiphop or RnB as i watch the street lights pass by me. Words can't describe the feeling I get when I do that.

7. I wear fake nerd glasses to throw people off.

8. I hate doing surveys like these, because seriously I HATE talking about myself. Whenever I'm hanging out with a person, I try not to talk about myself as much as possible, cause I really hate it. I don't find my life really worth talking about.

9. I consider a true friend is one who will always be there for you, not judge you for the things you do, can tell you where you fucked up, and no matter HOW long its been since the last time you guys have talked, its like nothing has ever changed. There is only a FEW people I can really consider my TRUE friends.

10. I strongly believe in the "Law of Attraction." I never doubt my self when it comes to something I want. I know I will get it, its just a matter of WHEN I will get it and HOW HARD I work to try and get that certain something.

11. I stay as positive as I can, I really dislike it when I hear other people thinking negative.

12. Back in the day, I used to be a naive little Filipino boy who thought the world was gonna end, and was extremely self conscious. I always try to impress everyone I meet, and that usually leads to my downfall.

Now I am a new person, and I do shit for myself. I don't gotta impress no one BUT myself.

13. I am finding it really hard to come up with 25 random facts.

14. The type of music I listen to all depends on the mood I am in. Each genre is a different mood.

15. I used to change my personality around people I don't know, but not anymore. If they don't like how I really am, then fuck bitches.

16. I go with the flow and take whatever is presented in front of me. I keep it spontaneous. I hate keeping to a plan or a schedule(not saying I am gonna go bail on people) cause I don't like my life being controlled. I control my life the way i want to.

17. I don't chase after ANYONE. Whether it is some girl that I think is really cute, or simply just one of my friends. I figure that if things are already going great, there would be no need to chase after a person. Things would just naturally gravitate towards each other.

18. I have a communication policy that I go by, I don't IM, Text, Call, Comment, Message, etc... First AT ALL. There is a part of me that feels like contact a person first, I will interrupt them in whatever they are doing. I hate that feeling of getting in the middle of something big. So if you ever get a Comment or anything first from me, you should be pretty damn happy. lol

19. I hate hearing from people "oh i miss you so much" "oh i want to hang out" "blah blah blah blah" I don't wanna hear it, I would rather SEE it. You miss me? SHOW IT when I see you. You wanna hang? Try to plan something with me and follow through with it. Actions are stronger than words.

20. I don't smoke, I don't blaze. I don't hookah, I don't do drugs, I don't club, and I don't rave. Those are just not my things. I am just a laid back chill type of person, I find other ways to have fun while avoiding all of the above.

21. I hate leaving a persons life knowing that I did not leave a lasting impression on them.

22. To tell you the truth, I do not know what I am going to do with my life. I have so many options that I can pick from, but I simply cannot decide on just one. I figured that I would be happy with whatever god has picked for my destiny. Until then I will just continue moving on forward.

23. It is rare for me to come out and tell you what is on my mind, or how I am feeling. It's not because I don't want to share weakness, It's because i don't like to burden others with whats going on in my life.

24. I also rarely get angry. Ask anyone who really knows me. Normally I have a high tolerance towards a lot of things. But when the time comes and I do get mad. I get MAD. Usually to see that side, you would have to talks hit about my friends, family or anything I believe in.



25. Hi my name is Anthony Tilar, I am 18 years old, and I would love to play a part in your life.

face it.

interesting enough, i am pretty content with life.
going to college
have a down-as-fuck group of friends
barely anything holding me back at all.
but this is just for right now.

what's in store for me over the hill?
what does my future hold for me?
will I be as successful as i set my self out to be?
or will i be another unsuccessful dipshit?

2009 is definitely a life changer for me.
anything can and will happen.
i guess i'll just take things as they come to me

one event at time.



ps. imma leave at least one picture that ive taken with every post.

newshit


so i got tired of my livejournal and made this
it kinda suits me i think
first post = not much to say

but i'll leave u with this.


got hope?