To everyone.
I am still a virgin.
I have never had a Girlfriend
And for those who thought I’ve had one before, It was a lie.
One reason why this all began was jealously.
Jealous of the fact that everyone else was able to experience a relationship.
The fact that they were able to share a “special connection” with someone else.
So to give myself something to talk about when the subject of relationships came up. I made things up just so I can go along with the subject, and to not just listen.
I was living in a made up fantasy the past 5-6 years.
Another reason was because of judgment.
Having mostly girl’s as friends, led to a lot of questioning.
“Why don’t you have any guy friends? Are you gay?”
People decided just to jump to conclusions and accuse me of being gay.
So then I started making things up to change that outlook.
I Told people that I’ve had sex with girls, to straighten things out. If you catch my drift.
But I am straight, so you don’t have to question that.
I am letting all this out now, because I feel that I have grown enough to finally be okay with who I am, what I haven’t done, and what I haven’t experienced. Being a virgin or not does not change who I am as a person inside. I am still the same Anthony Tilar that everyone knows.
I am sorry for the years of lies. It all comes to an end today.
My name is Anthony Tilar, and I am a virgin.
And I am proud to say I’m saving it for someone special.
